| Location | Birmingham Kingstanding |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Still Birth |
| Date of Birth | 6/1998 |
| Date of Death | 6/1998 |
| Visitors | 8,699 since 13/02/2008 |
| Creator |
Samuel Joshua Moore xxxxxx
born 5th june 1998 xxxxx
died 5th june 1998 was 38wks gestation xxxx
born at 21.25 xxx
71b 9oz
49cm
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HAPPY 11TH BIRTHDAY SAMUEL
ALL MY LOVE ALWAYS
MISSING YOU MORE AND MORE
EACH AND EVERYDAY!!! X X X
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HOLDING YOU FOREVER IN
MY HEART UNTIL I HOLD
YOU FOR AN ETERNITY IN
MY ARMS SWEETDREAMS
SAMthanking you for my speciel candles love sam x
I found out that i was pregnant and was excited
about becoming a mum again, from the start of my pregnancy
there was a lot of ups and downs and i wasnt sure that i
was going to carry samuel all the way through
as i was bad when i was carrying him early on.
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But as my pregnancy went on it got alot better and
was looking forward to seeing him i was admitted into
good hope hospital on the 3rd june they said it was due
to the amount of red blood cells i had.
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The next day was the 4th and i was sent home after being
given the all clear from the doctors, i went home and drew
my curtains shut, and its as if i knew what was going on that
something was going to happen to me, that afternoon i began
to have contractions so i left it a while as it was my 3rd baby
i knew that id be hanging round for ages for the pains to
get worse.
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eventually i gave in and got in the car to go to the hospital
on the way my belly went flat and the contractions was going
around my bump rather than normal contractions , i was still
excited though i thought about meeting my baby for so long
and eventually that time was here.
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the midwife put me into a room and said she would pop
me on to a monitor to check for the heartbeat, she put it on me
and was fiddling about with it for ages as the day before they had
found it on my left side not a sound was heard i screamed
at the midwife because i knew ,i knew that he had died.
the midwife rang my consultant and he came in at first he couldnt
work the machine to scan and after about 2hrs of being messed
he found one that he could use i sat in silence as i saw no
heartbeat on the scanning machine i felt my tears flooding down my face and nothing else mattered i
went numb.
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i was to give birth to sam the next day they gave me a sleeping tablet
but that didnt work i kept singing the tune tears in heaven over and over in my head and the next
day they induced me, my sister was there her friend it was a calm atmosphere i didnt want it to be
sad.
when i was just about to give birth to him my sister lisa left the room as she left i could see that
she was devestated by sams death as the door closed samuel was born i could see his tiny little body
lifeless everything in place my perfect little boy, the midwives are so amazing she told me that the
umbilical cord was wrapped around his entire body.
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when she took him away i screamed for her to bring him back i didnt want him to go, she came back
with sam in a moses basket all dressed and clean i held him in my arms and in my mind i kept asking
him to wake up and grip my hand he was warm and so soft.just like he was fast asleep
so peaceful.
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the priest came to bless samuel my mom,my sister,my sister in law and my sisters friend all held sam
and gave him a kiss he stayed with me all night long and i dont know how i managed to sleep that
night but i did he must of been with me then, i held him in my arms and just watched over him and
always in my head asking him to breath,i felt so empty and alone my baby was here but there was no
crying no cards no smiling just emptiness in side when it was time for sam to be taken my heart
ached so much for him and i seemed to flow into another state after that day my life was shattered
by him when i left the hospital that afternoon i walked down the corridor and heard the sounds of
the other babies crying i didnt want to cry but i couldnt help it because the day before i walked
in there pregnant and with hope of taking my boy home instead i walked out without him he was lying
in the hospital without me to look after him and i loved him so much.i left the hospital without my
angel no cards or gifts, no smiles,just a heavy aching heart.
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on the day of sams funeral his flowers started to arrive and i went out to look and couldnt belive
how many there was for him, i had sam at home over night and gave him a little bible for his coffin
a gold ring tiny braclet red rose a little letter from me photos of his brothers a gold cross, and a
little villa badge.he was up stairs in the little bedroom it had lots of flowers that people had
sent me in it was beautiful as people started to arrive i went down stairs and stood by the front
door i seen the black cars driving slowly up the road the most sickening feeling ever came over me
and i ran up stairs and sat over him and cried the men come up to shut his coffin and i said that i
needed to stay to watch them we pulled up at the church and i went blank all i can remember is that
my sister in law wrote a poem for sam and she couldnt read it beacuse of her tears.
it was like i was there watching but i wasnt there. when we arrived at the cemetary my head just
felt so heavy like it just wanted to burst, i didnt want him to go its an amazing sorrowful feeling
i wanted to hurt because he had died if i could of gave my life for him to have his i would of gave
him everything i,m sorry that he had to leave us all, its hard to cope
because everything of samuels i can fit in to a tiny box thats all i have left
of him all his photos and my own memories of him inside me i will never forget ~X~X~X~X~
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i went through depression really badly after sam had died i tried to commit suicide 3 times god kept
sending me back here, to look after my angels down here time does heal but it doesnt take away the
nice things that you need to make you heal i need his memory everyday i think of him all day it
doesnt make me mad it makes me his mom and as long as i live so will his memory,samuel has 8
brothers and sisters(4 of each) and they all know who sam is they think of him too hes part of me
and part of them i,ll never forget him because his memories are etched on my heart forever without
my partner and support of my mom i wouldnt be here today to write this probably somebody would be
lighting candles for me
god bless you sam I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU SAM XXXXXX
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TO MY LITTLE BABY BOY
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GOD TAKES YOU AND HOLDS YOU TIGHT N
SO YOU CAN SLEEP SOFTLY IN HEAVENLY
LIGHT XXXXXXXX FOREVER XXXXXXXXXXX
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ROSES GROW IN HEAVEN
If Roses grow in Heaven,
Lord please pick a bunch for me
Place them in my Loved ones arms
And tell them they're from me
Tell them I love and miss them
And when they turn to smile
Place a kiss upon their cheeks
And hold them for awhile
Because remembering them is easy,
I do it every day
But there's an ache within my heart
Because I am missing them today...
If Roses grow in Heaven,
Lord please pick a bunch for me
Place them in my Loved ones arms
And tell them they're from me
Tell them I love and miss them
And when they turn to smile
Place a kiss upon their cheeks
And hold them for awhile
Because remembering them is easy,
I do it every day
But there's an ache within my heart
Because I am missing them today...
*****SENDING ALL MY LOVE TO YOU IN HEAVEN*****
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*..lovelovelovelovelove…*….*…lovelovel...
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Read at Kierans Funeral
Miss Me But Let Me Go
When I come to the end of the road
And the sun has set for me,
I want no tears in a gloom-filled room,
Why cry for a soul set free?
Miss me a little – But not for long
And not with your head bowed low,
Remember the love that we once shared,
Miss me – But let me go.
For this is a journey we all must take,
And each must go alone,
It’s all a part of the Master’s plan
A step on the road to home.
When you are lonely and sick of heart
Go to your friends that we know,
And bury your sorrows in doing good works,
Miss me – But let me go.
Perhaps if we could see the splendour of the land
To which our loved ones are called from you and me,
We’d understand
Perhaps if we could hear the welcome they receive
From old familiar voices all so dear
We would not grieve.
Perhaps if we could know the reason why they went
We’d smile and wipe away the tears that flow
We’d wait content
Miss me – But let me go
Hugs Just For You .........
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♥ღ♥ A Last Goodbye ♥ღ♥
Though happily each year began
I had to die whilst very young
It is so long since our last touch
And I miss your presence there so much
Of many things I needed to learn
So to this place God made me turn
Yet with so many things to do
I have taken this moment to speak to you
The life that was, was not to be mine
Yet within this world it has worked out fine
Where I am now I have found new friends
In a place called Heaven where the spirit ascends
Straight to this world few pass it by
And no one here can really die
Although this child you cannot see
I know you'd be so proud of me
I look forward to when I'll see you mum
So until it is your time to come
Enjoy your life
And please don't cry
I just came to say goodbye.
Steve Franklin Palmer
♥ ♥ HEAVEN ♥ ♥
Heaven would not be Heaven
Without the children there,
Playing hide and seek in pearly mists
Free from every pain and care.
Heaven would not be Heaven
Without their carefree rapture,
Scrambling through the fluffy clouds
Each happy moment to capture
♥ ♥
Heaven would not be Heaven
Without their shouts and laughter
Echoing across Elysian fields
As starbursts they chase after
Heaven would not be Heaven
Without their joyful choir
Ringing through celestial realms
Sweet voices rising ever higher
♥ ♥
Heaven would not be Heaven
Without their radiant light,
Undimmed by earth's murky shades
Their robes shining bright.
Heaven would not be Heaven
Without their smiles of pleasure,
Bearing sheaves of rainbow flowers;
Children are Heaven's treasure.
♥ ♥
Candles in the Night
Candles flame in darkness,
Flicker, steadily glow,
Bringing light from shadows
And help to soothe me so.
My son, like the candles,
Gave my life true light,
I use the candle's beacon
To connect us in the night.
As I light the candles,
My wish and my request
Is that he'll see my signal
And know my love's expressed.
As his light joins my lights,
Our worlds touch and flame.
As I snuff out the candles,
I softly say his name.
By Genesse Bourdeau Gentry
As I look at the moon
I wish you goodnight
The dearest angel
So special and loved.
You are the one God chose to take
You are the one we could not wake
I know in heaven is now where you sleep.
So please God in heaven
God up above
Please protect this angel
That we love.
I must say good night
I blow to you a kiss
I wish you goodnight
The angel that we miss.
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__________-.OOOOOOOOOOOOO. ♥
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your mommy misses you so much little man
The Pit of Grief
The day my child died, I fell into the pit of grief. My friends watched me struggle through daily life; waiting for the person I once was to arise from the pit, not realizing 'she' is gone forever.
The pit is full of darkness, heartache and despair; it paralyzes your thoughts, movements and ability to ration. The pit leaves you forever changed, unable to surface the person you once were.
Some of my pre-grief friends gather around the top of the pit, waiting for the old me to appear before their eyes, not understanding what’s taking me so long to emerge. After all, in their eyes, I’ve been in the pit for quite sometime. Yet in my eyes, it seems as if I fell in only yesterday.
Not all of my pre-grief friends are gathered around the top of the pit. Some are helping me with the climb out of the darkness. They climb side by side with me from time to time, but mostly they climb ahead of me, waiting patiently at each plateau. Even with these friends I sometimes wonder if they are also waiting for the pre-grief me to magically appear before their eyes.
Then there are the casual acquaintances, you know the ones who say 'Hi, how are you?' when they really don't care or really want to know. These are the people who sigh in relief, that is my child who died and not theirs. You know ... the 'better them, than me' attitude.
My post-grief friends are the ones who climb with me, side by side, inch by inch, out of the pit of grief. They have no way of comparing the pit climbed to the pre-grief person I once was. You see, they started at the bottom of the pit with me. They are able to reassure me when I need reassurance, rest when I need resting, and encourage me to move forward when I don't have the strength. They have no expectations, no memories and no recollection of how I 'should' be. They want me to get better, to smile more often and find joy in life, but they also accepted the person I’ve become. The 'person' who is emerging from the pit.
Unknown Author
As I look at the moon
I wish you goodnight
The dearest angel
So special and loved.
You are the one God chose to take
You are the one we could not wake
I know in heaven is now where you sleep.
So please God in heaven
God up above
Please protect this angel
That we love.
I must say good night
I blow to you a kiss
I wish you goodnight
The angel that we miss.
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