| Location | Birmingham Kingstanding |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Still Birth |
| Date of Birth | 6/1998 |
| Date of Death | 6/1998 |
| Visitors | 8,734 since 13/02/2008 |
| Creator |
Samuel Joshua Moore xxxxxx
born 5th june 1998 xxxxx
died 5th june 1998 was 38wks gestation xxxx
born at 21.25 xxx
71b 9oz
49cm
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HAPPY 11TH BIRTHDAY SAMUEL
ALL MY LOVE ALWAYS
MISSING YOU MORE AND MORE
EACH AND EVERYDAY!!! X X X
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HOLDING YOU FOREVER IN
MY HEART UNTIL I HOLD
YOU FOR AN ETERNITY IN
MY ARMS SWEETDREAMS
SAMthanking you for my speciel candles love sam x
I found out that i was pregnant and was excited
about becoming a mum again, from the start of my pregnancy
there was a lot of ups and downs and i wasnt sure that i
was going to carry samuel all the way through
as i was bad when i was carrying him early on.
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But as my pregnancy went on it got alot better and
was looking forward to seeing him i was admitted into
good hope hospital on the 3rd june they said it was due
to the amount of red blood cells i had.
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The next day was the 4th and i was sent home after being
given the all clear from the doctors, i went home and drew
my curtains shut, and its as if i knew what was going on that
something was going to happen to me, that afternoon i began
to have contractions so i left it a while as it was my 3rd baby
i knew that id be hanging round for ages for the pains to
get worse.
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eventually i gave in and got in the car to go to the hospital
on the way my belly went flat and the contractions was going
around my bump rather than normal contractions , i was still
excited though i thought about meeting my baby for so long
and eventually that time was here.
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the midwife put me into a room and said she would pop
me on to a monitor to check for the heartbeat, she put it on me
and was fiddling about with it for ages as the day before they had
found it on my left side not a sound was heard i screamed
at the midwife because i knew ,i knew that he had died.
the midwife rang my consultant and he came in at first he couldnt
work the machine to scan and after about 2hrs of being messed
he found one that he could use i sat in silence as i saw no
heartbeat on the scanning machine i felt my tears flooding down my face and nothing else mattered i
went numb.
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i was to give birth to sam the next day they gave me a sleeping tablet
but that didnt work i kept singing the tune tears in heaven over and over in my head and the next
day they induced me, my sister was there her friend it was a calm atmosphere i didnt want it to be
sad.
when i was just about to give birth to him my sister lisa left the room as she left i could see that
she was devestated by sams death as the door closed samuel was born i could see his tiny little body
lifeless everything in place my perfect little boy, the midwives are so amazing she told me that the
umbilical cord was wrapped around his entire body.
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when she took him away i screamed for her to bring him back i didnt want him to go, she came back
with sam in a moses basket all dressed and clean i held him in my arms and in my mind i kept asking
him to wake up and grip my hand he was warm and so soft.just like he was fast asleep
so peaceful.
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the priest came to bless samuel my mom,my sister,my sister in law and my sisters friend all held sam
and gave him a kiss he stayed with me all night long and i dont know how i managed to sleep that
night but i did he must of been with me then, i held him in my arms and just watched over him and
always in my head asking him to breath,i felt so empty and alone my baby was here but there was no
crying no cards no smiling just emptiness in side when it was time for sam to be taken my heart
ached so much for him and i seemed to flow into another state after that day my life was shattered
by him when i left the hospital that afternoon i walked down the corridor and heard the sounds of
the other babies crying i didnt want to cry but i couldnt help it because the day before i walked
in there pregnant and with hope of taking my boy home instead i walked out without him he was lying
in the hospital without me to look after him and i loved him so much.i left the hospital without my
angel no cards or gifts, no smiles,just a heavy aching heart.
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on the day of sams funeral his flowers started to arrive and i went out to look and couldnt belive
how many there was for him, i had sam at home over night and gave him a little bible for his coffin
a gold ring tiny braclet red rose a little letter from me photos of his brothers a gold cross, and a
little villa badge.he was up stairs in the little bedroom it had lots of flowers that people had
sent me in it was beautiful as people started to arrive i went down stairs and stood by the front
door i seen the black cars driving slowly up the road the most sickening feeling ever came over me
and i ran up stairs and sat over him and cried the men come up to shut his coffin and i said that i
needed to stay to watch them we pulled up at the church and i went blank all i can remember is that
my sister in law wrote a poem for sam and she couldnt read it beacuse of her tears.
it was like i was there watching but i wasnt there. when we arrived at the cemetary my head just
felt so heavy like it just wanted to burst, i didnt want him to go its an amazing sorrowful feeling
i wanted to hurt because he had died if i could of gave my life for him to have his i would of gave
him everything i,m sorry that he had to leave us all, its hard to cope
because everything of samuels i can fit in to a tiny box thats all i have left
of him all his photos and my own memories of him inside me i will never forget ~X~X~X~X~
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i went through depression really badly after sam had died i tried to commit suicide 3 times god kept
sending me back here, to look after my angels down here time does heal but it doesnt take away the
nice things that you need to make you heal i need his memory everyday i think of him all day it
doesnt make me mad it makes me his mom and as long as i live so will his memory,samuel has 8
brothers and sisters(4 of each) and they all know who sam is they think of him too hes part of me
and part of them i,ll never forget him because his memories are etched on my heart forever without
my partner and support of my mom i wouldnt be here today to write this probably somebody would be
lighting candles for me
god bless you sam I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU SAM XXXXXX
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TO MY LITTLE BABY BOY
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GOD TAKES YOU AND HOLDS YOU TIGHT N
SO YOU CAN SLEEP SOFTLY IN HEAVENLY
LIGHT XXXXXXXX FOREVER XXXXXXXXXXX
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PLEASE COME TO MY PARTY.............
♥ Dear Baby Samuel,♥
♥ You are invited to Daniel Swaddle's ♥
♥ Birthday Party on the 16th April 2009 ♥
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♥ Everyone welcome & no presents required. ♥
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♥ LOVE DANIEL AND JUDE. X X ♥
HAPPY EASTER
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Wishing you all a Happy Easter
Lots of Love from Denise, Kieffer & Angel Nataliya
11TH APRIL 2009
♥ WITH LOVE AT EASTER. ♥
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═╔══╝══╚══╗ FOR A SPECIAL ANGEL.
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Memories of Easter past
Keep them in your heart
Know that I am at my best
With wings that never part
Standing right beside you
With wings that span so wide
Covering you with so much love
You're beauty at my side
Every prayer you whisper
Comes with special glow
Know that I am with you
Everywhere you go
Especially now at Easter
With special golden wings
I'm smiling down on loved ones
My soul forever sings
I'll send a special Halo
To shine above you all
With peace and love my memory
My memory covers you with shawl. ♥
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☆ LOVE TO YOU ☆
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FROM JUDE.X
SKY BUNNIES
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The Sky Is Full Of Bunny Clouds
So Soft And Fat And White,
I Wonder If They're Hiding Eggs
For Angels To Find With Delight.
Because Angels Like Easter As Well, You Know,
And There's No Reason Why
There Shouldn't Be An Easter Hunt
In Meadows In The Sky.
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Life is Hard Without you
•:*:• ♥ •:*:••:*:• ♥ •:*:••:*:• ♥
Missing you more with each new day
and trying to be brave...
Thinking of our happy times
and all the love you gave...
Feeling very grateful
for the dreams we saw come true,
For every lovely thing we shared
and, most of all, for you...
Treasuring each memory
that keeps you ever near...
Remembering familiar things
and wishing you were here.
Life's very hard without you
but that is the price to pay
For all the shared and precious times
grief cannot take away.
I just wanted to say a massive thank you for all your support and for looking after Mary's page while I've been away you truly are angels on earth and id have been lost with out you these past months Godbless you and thank you again from the very bottom of my heart and wishing you a peaceful sunday love as always xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
✳ 8TH MARCH 2009 ✳
OUT OF SIGHT, NOT OUT OF MIND.............
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SEARCH YOUR MIND
FOR THOSE YOU SEEK
CLOSE YOUR EYES
AND TAKE A PEEK.
THEY ARE HERE FOR YOU TO SEE,
FOR MEMORIES ARE SAFE FOR ETERNITY,
HELD TIGHT SOMEWHERE INSIDE YOUR MIND,
IT'S ONLY THE PATH YOU NEED TO FIND.
LOVE AND DESIRE
WILL SHOW YOU THE WAY
TO BRING THOSE YOU HOLD DEAR
CLOSER TODAY.
SO CLOSE YOUR EYES
AND TAKE A PEEK.
SEARCH YOUR MIND
FOR THOSE YOU SEEK.
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WISHING YOU A PEACEFULL SUNDAY, LOVE JUDE.X
your beautiful xxxxxxxxxxx
When i held you close to me and touched your tiny hands and perfect soft face i knew i held in my arms a miracle that no body can replace, beyond the tears that fall silent upon my pillow i realise that i hold you every night every day deep within my aching heart.
Always remembering all those precious kicks and pictures i hold in my mind my beautiful angel. God has blessed me with my own little angel whom i love with every last breath. God holds you until i can again missing you always sweetie XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
mommy xxxxxxxx
Tribute Is For This Weekend
Candles Might Not Be Lit Until Monday Next Week It's My Birthday On Saturday So I Will Be Missing Christopher Even More Than Usual... Bless Him X
Grief Is Like A River
My grief is like a river,
I have to let it flow,
But I myself determine
Just where the banks will go.
Some days the current takes me
In waves of guilt and pain,
But there are always quiet pools
Where I can rest again.
I crash on rocks of anger;
My faith seems faint indeed,
But there are other swimmers
Who know that what I need
Are loving hands to hold me
When the waters are too swift,
And someone kind to listen
When I just seem to drift.
Grief's river is a process
Of relinquishing the past.
By swimming in hope's channels,
I'll reach the shore at last.
If I Knew
If I knew it would be the last time
That I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
And pray the Lord, your soul to keep.
If I knew it would be the last time
That I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
And call you back for one more.
If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
So I could play them back day after day.
If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute
To stop and say "I love you,"
Instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.
If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
Well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
So I can let just this one slip away.
For surely there's always tomorrow
To make up for an oversight,
And we always get a second chance
To make everything just right.
There will always be another day
To say "I love you,"
And certainly there's another chance to say
Our "Anything I can do?"
But just in case I might be wrong,
And today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you
And I hope we never forget.
Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
Young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance
You get to hold your loved one tight.
So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
Why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
You'll surely regret the day,
That you didn't take that extra time
For a smile, a hug, or a kiss
And you were too busy to grant someone,
What turned out to be their one last wish.
So hold your loved ones close today,
And whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them
And that you'll always hold them dear
Take time to say "I'm sorry,"
"Please forgive me," "Thank you," or "It's okay."
And if tomorrow never comes,
You'll have no regrets about today.
Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela(Christopher-John Rowe)Mum
For Friday
~*~big hugs~*~
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love always lianne xxx
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