| Location | Birmingham Kingstanding |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Still Birth |
| Date of Birth | 6/1998 |
| Date of Death | 6/1998 |
| Visitors | 8,732 since 13/02/2008 |
| Creator |
Samuel Joshua Moore xxxxxx
born 5th june 1998 xxxxx
died 5th june 1998 was 38wks gestation xxxx
born at 21.25 xxx
71b 9oz
49cm
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HAPPY 11TH BIRTHDAY SAMUEL
ALL MY LOVE ALWAYS
MISSING YOU MORE AND MORE
EACH AND EVERYDAY!!! X X X
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HOLDING YOU FOREVER IN
MY HEART UNTIL I HOLD
YOU FOR AN ETERNITY IN
MY ARMS SWEETDREAMS
SAMthanking you for my speciel candles love sam x
I found out that i was pregnant and was excited
about becoming a mum again, from the start of my pregnancy
there was a lot of ups and downs and i wasnt sure that i
was going to carry samuel all the way through
as i was bad when i was carrying him early on.
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But as my pregnancy went on it got alot better and
was looking forward to seeing him i was admitted into
good hope hospital on the 3rd june they said it was due
to the amount of red blood cells i had.
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The next day was the 4th and i was sent home after being
given the all clear from the doctors, i went home and drew
my curtains shut, and its as if i knew what was going on that
something was going to happen to me, that afternoon i began
to have contractions so i left it a while as it was my 3rd baby
i knew that id be hanging round for ages for the pains to
get worse.
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eventually i gave in and got in the car to go to the hospital
on the way my belly went flat and the contractions was going
around my bump rather than normal contractions , i was still
excited though i thought about meeting my baby for so long
and eventually that time was here.
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the midwife put me into a room and said she would pop
me on to a monitor to check for the heartbeat, she put it on me
and was fiddling about with it for ages as the day before they had
found it on my left side not a sound was heard i screamed
at the midwife because i knew ,i knew that he had died.
the midwife rang my consultant and he came in at first he couldnt
work the machine to scan and after about 2hrs of being messed
he found one that he could use i sat in silence as i saw no
heartbeat on the scanning machine i felt my tears flooding down my face and nothing else mattered i
went numb.
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i was to give birth to sam the next day they gave me a sleeping tablet
but that didnt work i kept singing the tune tears in heaven over and over in my head and the next
day they induced me, my sister was there her friend it was a calm atmosphere i didnt want it to be
sad.
when i was just about to give birth to him my sister lisa left the room as she left i could see that
she was devestated by sams death as the door closed samuel was born i could see his tiny little body
lifeless everything in place my perfect little boy, the midwives are so amazing she told me that the
umbilical cord was wrapped around his entire body.
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when she took him away i screamed for her to bring him back i didnt want him to go, she came back
with sam in a moses basket all dressed and clean i held him in my arms and in my mind i kept asking
him to wake up and grip my hand he was warm and so soft.just like he was fast asleep
so peaceful.
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the priest came to bless samuel my mom,my sister,my sister in law and my sisters friend all held sam
and gave him a kiss he stayed with me all night long and i dont know how i managed to sleep that
night but i did he must of been with me then, i held him in my arms and just watched over him and
always in my head asking him to breath,i felt so empty and alone my baby was here but there was no
crying no cards no smiling just emptiness in side when it was time for sam to be taken my heart
ached so much for him and i seemed to flow into another state after that day my life was shattered
by him when i left the hospital that afternoon i walked down the corridor and heard the sounds of
the other babies crying i didnt want to cry but i couldnt help it because the day before i walked
in there pregnant and with hope of taking my boy home instead i walked out without him he was lying
in the hospital without me to look after him and i loved him so much.i left the hospital without my
angel no cards or gifts, no smiles,just a heavy aching heart.
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on the day of sams funeral his flowers started to arrive and i went out to look and couldnt belive
how many there was for him, i had sam at home over night and gave him a little bible for his coffin
a gold ring tiny braclet red rose a little letter from me photos of his brothers a gold cross, and a
little villa badge.he was up stairs in the little bedroom it had lots of flowers that people had
sent me in it was beautiful as people started to arrive i went down stairs and stood by the front
door i seen the black cars driving slowly up the road the most sickening feeling ever came over me
and i ran up stairs and sat over him and cried the men come up to shut his coffin and i said that i
needed to stay to watch them we pulled up at the church and i went blank all i can remember is that
my sister in law wrote a poem for sam and she couldnt read it beacuse of her tears.
it was like i was there watching but i wasnt there. when we arrived at the cemetary my head just
felt so heavy like it just wanted to burst, i didnt want him to go its an amazing sorrowful feeling
i wanted to hurt because he had died if i could of gave my life for him to have his i would of gave
him everything i,m sorry that he had to leave us all, its hard to cope
because everything of samuels i can fit in to a tiny box thats all i have left
of him all his photos and my own memories of him inside me i will never forget ~X~X~X~X~
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i went through depression really badly after sam had died i tried to commit suicide 3 times god kept
sending me back here, to look after my angels down here time does heal but it doesnt take away the
nice things that you need to make you heal i need his memory everyday i think of him all day it
doesnt make me mad it makes me his mom and as long as i live so will his memory,samuel has 8
brothers and sisters(4 of each) and they all know who sam is they think of him too hes part of me
and part of them i,ll never forget him because his memories are etched on my heart forever without
my partner and support of my mom i wouldnt be here today to write this probably somebody would be
lighting candles for me
god bless you sam I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU SAM XXXXXX
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TO MY LITTLE BABY BOY
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GOD TAKES YOU AND HOLDS YOU TIGHT N
SO YOU CAN SLEEP SOFTLY IN HEAVENLY
LIGHT XXXXXXXX FOREVER XXXXXXXXXXX
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♥ May the winds of love ♥
♥ blow softly and whisper ♥
♥ in your ear how much ♥
♥ we love and miss you ♥
♥ and wish that you were here♥
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♥ May the winds of love ♥
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♥ in your ear how much ♥
♥ we love and miss you ♥
♥ and wish that you were here♥
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love always Bon xxxx
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♥ I came to light a candle ♥
♥ And fill it with love ♥
♥ They burn now brightly ♥
♥ Up in heaven above. ♥
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A Monday Gift From Me To You
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I send to you this morning a gift of words, like a cloud delivering rain.
May they fall upon you ever so gently and wash away your pain.
For you and all your loved ones, I bow my head and pray.
May these prayers somehow guide you and help you find your way.
My thoughts and prayers are also with you, as you begin your day.
Only You and I, and God, know what these words attempt to say.
Never look into the past – move forward and straight ahead.
Do as your heart tells you, your soul will be fed.
Always remember how very special you are.
Your friendship to me is a beautiful, bright shining star.
For this friendship that we share, I send this small token,
May it somehow help you repair all that is broken.
There is a power on this earth greater than You and I,
He is the one who stirs your emotions and allows you to cry.
MEMORIES
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I have a picture of you I carry in my heart
Close my eyes to see it when the world gets dark
I have a memory of you I carry in my soul
I wrap it close around me when the nights get cold
If you ask me how I am doing I would say just fine
But the truth is if you could read my mind
Not a day goes by that I don’t think of you
After all this time you are still with me that is true
Somehow you remain so deep inside
This memory I will never ever want to hide
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♥ ☆ LOVE TO YOU FOREVER BABY ☆ ♥
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This Tribute Is For This Weekend
Candles will be lit on Sunday.
My computer is running very slow at the moment
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God saw you getting tired
And a cure was not to be.
So he put his arms around you,
And whispered "Come to Me".
With tearful eyes we watched you,
We watched you fade away.
Although we loved you dearly,
We could not make you stay.
A golden heart stopped beating,
Hard working hands now rest.
God broke our hearts to prove to us
He only takes the best.
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Life is but a stopping place,
A pause in what's to be,
A resting place along the road,
To sweet eternity.
We all have different journeys,
Different paths along the way,
We are all meant to learn some things,
But never meant to stay.
Our destination is a place,
Far greater than we know,
For some the journey's quicker,
For some the journey's slow.
But when the journey finally ends,
We'll claim a great reward,
And find an everlasting peace,
Together with the Lord.
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Little did we know that morning
God was going to call your name.
In life we loved you dearly,
In death we do the same.
It broke our hearts to lose you,
But you did not go alone.
For part of us went with you,
The day God called you home.
You left us peaceful memories,
Your love is still our guide.
And though we cannot see you,
You are always by our side.
Our family chain is broken
And nothing seems the same.
But as God calls us one by one,
The chain will link again.
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Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela(Christopher-John Rowe)Mum
Please See Me Through My Tears
by Kelly Osmont
You asked, "How am I doing?"
As I told you, tears came to my eyes...
and you looked away and quickly began to talk again.
All the attention you had given me drained away.
"How am I doing?"...I do better when people listen,
though I may shed a tear or two.
This pain is indescribable.
If you've never known it you cannot fully understand.
Yet I need you.
When you look away,
When I'm ignored,
I am again alone with it
Your attention means more than you can ever know.
Really, tears are not a bad sign, you know!
They're nature's way of helping me to heal...
They relieve some of the stress of sadness.
I know you fear that asking how I'm doing brings me sadness
...but you're wrong.
The memory of my loved one's death will always be with me,
Only a thought away.
My tears make my pain more visible to you, but you did not
give me the pain...it was already there.
When I cry, could it be that you feel helpless, not knowing
what to do?
You are not helpless,
And you don't need to do a thing but be there.
When I feel your permission to allow my tears to flow,
you've helped me
You need not speak. Your silence as I cry is all I need.
Be patient...do not fear.
Listening with your heart to "how I am doing"
relieves the pain,
for when the tears can freely come and go, I feel lighter.
Talking to you releases what I've been wanting to say aloud,
clearing space
for a touch of joy in my life.
I'll cry for a minute or two...
and then I'll wipe my eyes,
and sometimes you'll even find I'm laughing later.
When I hold back the tears, my throat grows tight,
my chest aches, my stomach knots...
because I'm trying to protect you from my tears.
Then we both hurt...me, because my pain is held inside,
a shield against our closeness...and you,
because suddenly we're distant.
So please, take my hand and see me through my tears...
then we can be close again.
GOODNIGHT AND GOD BLESS
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♥♥ My breath
died♥♥
....with yours!♥♥
♥♥ My heart
stopped♥♥
....with yours!♥♥
♥♥ My life
ended♥♥....
with yours!♥♥
♥♥ Nothing is left to me!♥♥
....except the Love
you brought♥♥.
....Always, always,♥♥
...I shall have♥♥
your Love!♥♥
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JUDE.X
Dear Mr Hallmark
I am writing to you from Heaven, and though it must appear
A rather strange idea, I see everything from here.
I just popped in to visit, your stores to find a card
A card of love for my Mum, as she's finding it very hard.
There must be some mistake I thought, I saw every card you could imagine
Except I could not find a card, from a child who lives in heaven.
She is still a Mum too, no matter where I reside
I had to leave, she understands, but oh the tears she's cried.
I thought that if I wrote you, that you would come to know
That though I live in heaven now, I still love my Mum so.
She talks with me, and dreams with me; we still share laughter too,
Memories are our way of speaking now, would you see what you could do?
My Mum carries me in her heart, her tears she hides from sight.
She writes poems to honor me, sometimes long into the night
She plants flowers in my garden, there my living memory dwells
She writes to other grieving parents, trying to ease their pain as well.
So you see Mr.Hallmark, though I no longer live on earth
I must find a way to remind my Mum of her wondrous worth.
She needs to be honored, and remembered too
Just as the children of earth will do.
Thank you Mr.Hallmark, I know you'll do your best
I have done all I can do; to you I'll leave the rest.
Find a way to tell her, how much she means to me
Until I can do it for myself, when she joins me in eternity
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